Fighting the Fight

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Is it might or right, from your
front door standing in the night?

You raise your fist and sound
the alarm, speak tough words

and are willing to roll around
with other men, on the ground

of prisons, jails and sin, but if
“I could just be the toughest,

Perhaps they would give me a
medal of honor, and I would finally…

Win.”

“I’m gonna kick your ass” is the favorite
of the “Tough”—not seeing the homo-

sexual connotations in raping peace
with certain incarceration, where you

might find yourself rolling around soon
with other men who thought they were

Tough, then ended up showing their
toughness to male guards, temporary

male prostitutes, trying to substitute
for co-ed life away from the bars.

Then one day you think, maybe I should
not fight so much, or act on anger

all the time, pushing my weight around,
because wait:

Life is short, and I’d rather be free where
I go, free of anger, fear and pride driving

me every which way but home—to the bar,
to the road, to the fight, to the
handcuffs, to the booking, to the
stories told when everybody’s looking,

to a lonely cell, the brotherhood of
all men and women, could have listened
to Jesus Christ, turned the other cheek,

kissed the girl, raised a family—

So stop rolling around with other men—
or threatening homoerotic fantasies,

And come back to God, peace, and
general neighborhood tranquility.

Tough, like Cool is dead—in the presence
of cooler, calmer, eternal Nice.

God bless us to nice—a Tough thing to
be—the best if you want to breathe
long… And See.

New Year’s Poem — 2015/2016

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Poetry Season

It’s January in my mind,
the ball did not drop yet but
it wonders why so many people
claim Rome fell.

We dance by an old calendar
expressing new ways to
celebrate her.

We measure 365 days to perfection,
even the most religious
so scientific when it comes
to birthdays and moving suns.

Or is it the Earth that rotates?

I sometimes forget, standing
still the supposed whirling around
of all matter, going this way
or that—

Depending of course, on where
you are standing upon viewing,
Einstein calling us to keep on
achieving, E=mcnever a
replacement for Higher Power
and supplicating for better
unknowns…

Switching times, it’s closer
than you think. New Year’s
Eve again, and change leads us
and thoughts forwards and
backwards over what was and might
be—new numbers on our dated
homework or at the bank or DMV.

The ball drops, but not only in
New York. Change follows truth,
and improvement needs you to
admit what is bad, before all becomes
good.

Imagine the rain and what it cleans;
clouds and how they seem.

Without a storm, could we have
the ‘bow and wind-swept blue?

Without the hard, could there be easy?

Without hell, would there be a heaven
at all?

And to those Big Bangers: apply
“yin and yang” to your science and
see that absence of matter needs
matter, and matter absence—there is
always everything, nothing and hopefully
One positive thing driving this
Symphony of stars, whether on a beach
or in the sky.

Ours is not to die, but to contribute
some light, Walt Whitman’s line,

and so with that, what will yours be?

Another drink, a cliché—you listen to
your TV?

School, a job, get drunk enough to
marry, have kids—then realize you
aren’t living your dreams but theirs?

Trust no white coat, and reject
diagnosis as you trudge the hill
leading to real health from its
Primary Provider—Higher Power,
your best “you” firing out like a rising
comet, burning bright before they’ll
say you never died, but supplied…

That need in us to shine.

Then gather us to our people, like
the Jews of old, who left their
lives in others’ hands, departed with
the world spinning as before, better—stronger
and wiser, the ‘bow sweet over
yesterday’s sad rain,

2015 in Roman numerals becoming
2016 once again…

Happy New Year, babies, and may
your daughters and sons carry
this message to the sun:

Thanks. Just “thanks,” as we live
today just begun.

My Fulham Cap

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Nothing changes in this city
gone mad with same.

You look up, you look down,
and are sure the world’s insane.

Clint Dempsey lit it up there,
The Cottage for a moment

Lost in the shine that was his wake.

I love Fulham.

I shall not leave her.

And I await her return to the Premier
League, not just for hers but
for my selfish sake.

And not just for my Fulham cap,
which hangs hooked on a proud
nail in my room…

I need Fulham on my TV
more often, and for that reason

I write this half poem-half song
to celebrate and inspire

My Forever favorite football club,

Fulham FC. Find me in Los Angeles
on NBC or NBCSN, or USA channel
or NBC Sports EXTRA channels,

I hardly care where, but find me!!

I’ll be waiting with my Fulham cap
on, even though I rarely wear
caps anymore.

And my Fulham scarf is too warm—
let’s face it, I live in warm weather
mecca…

Where I await your return to my television.

Love and Faith.

—Watkins

Fulham Cap+Cross

 

Smile Forever

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Things will happen,
good and bad times, but
the day is long enough for both.

I love the wind, change—
the softness of days free of
doubt or worry.

God is spoken of in church
and I see nature’s beautiful
sky and horizon,

I think we’re all here for
a pretty good reason.
Things come together,

Seem made for each other,
dreams and waking time
combine,

I’m so glad to have another
day to think and write
and draw and pray.

Somewhere others are sighing,
writing and reading,
reciting or singing

And I think I hear them,
because I’m smiling now
despite hard times;

My day is long I let in the
tough, it passes and like
waves return to the sea.

Sometimes I could swear
God has made this world
just for me…

So I could smile forever.

Fears and Dreams

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Market talk used to be about
weather at least.

Now, because of uneducated, short-
term thinking politicians and green
lobbyists we have the “bag” discussion,
the Q and A about bags.

Inanimate objects do not walk into the ocean,
or even float or fly there,
without human aid.

Should we outlaw humans at markets
in California?

That, or teach law in schools,
remind kids not to litter,
encourage them to bring that value
into their homes if missing.

Do school cleanups, pass out
awards for effort, until our cities
look like we care about them.

God’s Day is Sunday for me, Saturday
for the Jews, and forgotten by the
resentful bum or parking meter—
miserly going about business seven
days a week, head down counting change.

The Lazy Rooster wakes and crows
at noon, is called lazy by the other
roosters, until he reminds them that
those who judge get judged, a waste of
time to concentrate on others’ defects.

To fight back fears, I stay sober a day
at a time, accumulate books, items
from the past, Wisdom of the ages—
stack it up for rainy days.

I’m a Man of Mystery, working
on time’s proud history, 1-2-3,
Truth coming and going, waiting
for the next ask.

“Where’s the smile?” There it is,
and often I go there, unless of course
there is a cross to bear.

The snake first appeared to me
while I was in my crib looking up
at stars alone, feverish in a dream.

I screamed and no one cared. No one
seemed to understand; they had partying
to do, running from their fears
of voids, quiet times, and “nothing to
do.”

Nothing is everything, ask Borges or
Seinfeld, or Einstein or the guy who
invented the equation:
E=mc2 + 1, where one is God.

Or 1=0=Infinity – you can define
terms, use language I dare you!!

Fictions depicting fact, the closer you
look at Truth, the hazier the moment
gets—look at an Argentine waterfall
in the land of toucans, you can!

Live, stretch yourself, the dreams you
dream do have ears that care,
but seek them not, only your
dreams to share.

And they, Peace of mind—Heaven…
will be there

Honor Them

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Plastic Bags float into the sea, eventually….

But what if we took care of them;
what if we kept them tightly balled
up in back pocket ready to spring,
use, re-use—recycle???

What if we taught in public
schools, not math and reading
first—but take care of our
communities, obey the law, honor
your parents?

What if we did not shy away from
the Bible if it teaches good,
add the Tao Te Ching when
appropriate, use the Big Book
of A.A., tell the old guard to give
up and make a gender neutral
version?

Honor your parents to live long
in the kingdom God has given us,
keep one day a week holy, call it
a Sabbath, a day of rest, there is
wisdom in old—let go, and give
your life up to Higher Powers,
“shower the people you love
with love,” James Taylor hour—

the Day is Done, and Longfellow
coaches us to our highest selves
before sleep, to sleep perchance
to dance, the language we have
not perfect, betraying beautiful
fictions—contradicting heavenly
excursions as we go for one last
slide or reason “why” before the
eyelids close and yesterday dies.

I have an inkling it all matters, is
recorded, and that Karma is beyond
theory—it is Newton’s Third Law, fun
for all at Einstein’s intersection of
knowing and not knowing….

Honor them and sleep.

Honor them, sing, tell the truth,
reject sin and sleep…

Teach a child not to litter,
and sleep

God is Bigger

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Life itself, is in front
of you—what seems safe and right,
the risks we take calculated against
strength of day, weakness of night.

We do our best…

Some grind with head down,
assured the answer’s in hard work.
Some never get to look around, take a break

and by grinding daily we strip the new
off our spirit until it dies. Sometimes
fast, sometimes slow, but dead we’re
easier targets for calamity, believe the
first thing a doctor says when he or
she reads a reading and doesn’t
like what they see.

Scientists like Mary Baker Eddy,
positivists like Ella Wheeler Wilcox,
Longfellow must have been too tell
you:

You are perfect, go with God, Create,
Be, Believe and decide in health to
Live and put Higher Power—

Not “Covid” or doctor’s orders in charge.

Look high and low for things that are
wrong and you shall find them.

Search instead for all things good,
and those, like an end to this, shall
you also find in time…

Give what you got, all you have to life,
and question authorities who tell
you it’s time to die…

For they, they have not allowed their
minds to go eternal, might be
grinders, might need healing from
you not the other way around, friend.

Show them your new paint, take
the first step (honesty) and awake—
God, even as concept or
Good Orderly Direction is bigger
than the evil you fear if you
Decide it is, make your great
decision here:

Non-Lethal

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Born we never hurt;
vulnerable, loving, wondering…

We get scared once, twice, grow
up scared so many times, you make
a pact with the Devil to take
revenge on big bullying small,
justify to yourself and others when
you buy a gun, get trained in uniform
to KILL, throwing out a thought the
Bible or Torah instilled in you to
be “good” and turn the other cheek
to evil… forgive.

We may get hurt in this life; some
are confused, have walked too far away
from the infancy of innocence, forget
that the whole journey is about
staying young, fighting for innocence.

Our Anger is Devil-born, is from Evil,
and so a community is wise to stop
justifying it and its guns—bent on killing,
taking revenge for the pain, the fear felt,
preempting threats with shots through
the torso, awaiting a friend-in-Evil,
Satan beating that drum, calling it all
“Justifiable homicide…” What a game,
you think you win when you lied,

But oh the turns that take, as you
lie awake, the face of the murdered in
yours, you know there is a heaven, even
if only Peace of Mind, knowing
you did your best.

You could have believed in your fellow
man or woman, sought some good out
even in their worst moment.

You played God and not only judged
them as not worthy but killed.

And now they return to you in
nightmares and visions, God’s way of
saying: “Thou shalt not kill…” Your crime
has a punishment whether courts find
you guilty or not.

Two roads diverged in the heat
of a Los Angeles day: kill the apparent
killer or forgive.

One road to heaven, the other to Hell,
make up your mind now; I hope you
make it well

Find It!!

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The valley’s peak is low,
stars shine greatest in darkness—
Newborn the sober alcoholic
shines when awake, the regret
of yesterday forming a wave
of curiosity, becoming in fact:

Sanity.

We want to take on the world at first
light; we shirk the Devil of last night,
the crutch and excuse of “oh,
I was drunk” doesn’t work anymore,
and you just don’t seem happy,
just getting by, and so turn around…

the education is good, high enough
to win a prize… you wipe the bhang
resin off your mind, regret is high,
but sober a day hasn’t seen much yet…

Keep rising, your brain supplying,
get back to reading, recall the quiet
of good times long but not too far
in the past…

We turn around, we turn around, we
find the solution we lost or never had found;
we accuse a friend of wrong,
wake up to our wrong, it’s our great
right; then we slow down, find God,
and go to day two, the second step…

Sanity. Find it!!

Into Blue Eyes

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Starring another time, integrity
in film, on film, into blue eyes
I felt I knew a few guys, and there
was never a truer heart than the
one that gave who he was for
us to have in our homes, Into
the blue again, I miss
Paul and wish I could see him again.

The age was close, the goals the same,
I said “hi” to him at a reggae concert,
even remembered his name. Emilio
Estevez was there, the Ventura Theater
circa 2008, a Breakfast Club of
rubadub dub, take out the pot
and we love the music that praises
God.

Reggae rhythms, diving down, we
are given our passions, some good to
chase—others we are left to question
tough to lose our heroes to planes and
cars, diving down—God takes us when
He or She pleases, a Powerful force
could’ve taken me in my friend’s
M3, weaving in and out traffic in
a San Marino suburb, no care
for intersections or stop signs it
was always “go” at all times.

The Great Humbler in the sky remembers
us like we Paul skating, surfing, scoring
goals—pumping fists, and we listen or
die the next time blue eyes love to drive…

We cannot bring Paul back, a spirit only
calling for peace on spirit’s gold waves
of sand, Meadow’s wide plane of
understanding hopefully rain from
pain, the rainbow learning with us
as we say no to some things, yes to others,

Never feeling less than perfect choosing
Ren’s life over death, feeling sad at our
loss into blue eyes, another time over
and over on the TV, a captivating
California Sun in blue eyes, tanned to
say “I love the beach, and please keep
loving it and ocean for me. Question
my speed in public streets, but never my
intention and passion to be”

Paul Walker