Before the change, you wait
until lo and behold: it’s too late,
the wind and the spin of the planet
beginning again around the sun,
ninety to a hundred times seen
per blessed life, Hebrew kings
and justice is still right. Pinch here,
pinch there, we’re different
I’ll miss her.
As long as I’m alive I’ll live July
Something dreams and I’m stronger.
We get up in peace, as long as we
yesterday struggled and sacrificed
enough, took our shopping money
to the street, clothed a man on his
last leg, wet pants—you said and did
the right things, changed him with
a tear as he said three cheers.
You walk at limp pace with the suffering
masses, being sure you’re not “ahead
of your skis,” the advanced run wisping
by trees toward Heaven.
There are no signs for it, minus the
aforementioned dreams. And they do
not come remembered until you commit
to truth, take off your own threads,
give your life to powers unseen, see
your part in the general flow, put an
extra coat on—hoping for one more
splash in the song that is today.
I’ll miss the winter, when long
from it I wet my own sheets dreaming
of she’s and he’s who like me, admit
they can’t do it alone.
I’ll miss the winter, when in the Truth
of now I shine a light on age, rocks
sagging off a sheened rebel coast,
Scotland crags, Welsh hills awaiting
As we stand to holler one more time.
I’ll miss the winter, as I shout my
colors into the wind, national flags
sagging likewise around children and
infants raped by ignorant knives
as mother cries, father and so many
on the wide path of “I don’t know”
and “Whatever they say—”
We abdicate our will to white coats
until grace appears at point of death.
We see light at last, breathe and smile.
Dealt this, we cope, try to accept the
wrongs but call them out so the next
little boy and girl tastes opportunity
and freedom sooner you hope—
than you did.
Sighs breed change as winds their
leaves returning—yell out “God”
or something like it now. Grab
today! The hope, stay warm at night
say good night and pray.
It’s getting warm again, as you knew it
would. You shake it off, stare at the
“Until next year,” you think of things
only God should.