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Real vs. Usurped Christianity

21 Friday Mar 2025

Posted by Bill Watkins in Christ, Christian, Christianity, Education, Poetic Blog

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Bible, Christianity, Faith, God, Jesus, John Locke, Joy, Love, Peace, Religion, Usurpation

-By Bill Watkins

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As the true Tao cannot be spoken, real Christianity proves itself, needs no explanation. But in the face of the word’s prevalent misuse, I’ll venture out to define it, discuss it, and clarify as best I can. I consider myself an actual Christian, who tries to follow the word of God through Jesus in the four gospels most Bibles present.

There is nothing harmful in the gospels, but for many years people have usurped the name of “Christian” to do evil, commit violence, and as my indigenous friend and writer Steven Newcomb asserts, to dominate others. Domination, evil and violence are absolutely not found in Jesus’ message to his disciples and the world. Because of that very fact, I contend, Christianity has been a perfect target of usurpation: to steal the pure and good for evil purposes.

The middle age Crusades drew a Christian cross on their shields, killed people for land. No credible interpretation of Jesus’ teachings would claim the rebellious Nazarene Rabbi wanted this. Any gospel references to the “sword” seem metaphorical, as Jesus’ overriding singular teaching above all others was Love. Love your neighbor as yourself. Love your enemy. Repent, and the other twenty-plus Jesus commandments in the Book of Matthew have nothing to do with the Papal writings that greenlit the Crusades and later the many abuses of European “Discovery.” In his Romanus Pontifex of 1454, Pope Nicholas V called on Catholics:

…to invade, search out, capture, vanquish, and subdue all Saracens and pagans whatsoever, and other enemies of Christ…

Aha! Enter the Catholicism versus Christianity debate. What is a Catholic? What is a follower of the Church that descends from Rome, home of the Romans who killed Jesus? To me the Catholic Church mixes the Bible, Christian views, idolatry and Roman polytheism enough for me to consider it somewhat alcoholic, confused with occasional gospel teachings that save lives.

English enlightenment thinker Sir John Locke was undoubtedly aware of usurping Christ to commit evil acts, when he wrote a treatise on usurpation, including this tidbit:

It is vain for any man to usurp the name of Christian, without holiness of life, purity of manners, benignity and meekness of spirit.

The above quote the perfect response to a reader ready to hit me with the invalid “No real Scotsman” fallacy in this Real v. Actual Christian debate. The “No Real Scotsman” fallacy does not apply to Christianity because Scotsmen have no explicit written code to follow. True Christians do, and follow it over anything a human leader might say, be he a pope or king or whoever asking people to break Christ’s commands.

Or a president associating him or herself with “Christian Nationalism,” something that doesn’t actually exist. The two terms are at odds. Are oxymoronic. Man cannot serve two masters, saith the gospel: we must choose sometimes. In the case of being a Christian, a follower of Christ and his teachings, you cannot be one while at the same time worshipping a national flag, nation or government.

Go beyond words and declarations. See the truth underneath. Know whether someone is false or true “by their fruits,” recommended Jesus. Their words can say one thing, their actions another. So to say, “I’m a good Christian” as you judge, mistreat, kill and dominate others is to say, you are not an actual Christian. It is to say you are attempting to usurp the name of “Christian” to help you do evil.

And never forget our beliefs, which coincide with the teachings in which we believe. If an actual Christian, you will be certain that you cannot be a “good” Christian because “only God is good,” according to Christ. You wouldn’t put a cross on a shield and kill people, if a true Christian. You wouldn’t post “Christian” on your Twitter bio blurb, while you spew hatred against people who look and talk differently than you.

You would treat the word of God with respect, Jesus’ commandments as laws and never break them consciously. Writing “I’m a Christian” or “I’m doing this for God” is a lot easier than actually living Christian principles. “Do as they say, not as they do,” and “you will know [false prophets] by their fruits” were teachings to prepare us for the Fake Christian. The violent person posing as a follower of God.

The usurper. The thief. The wolf in sheep’s clothing. If you see, hear or spot one of those I’d recommend using Jesus’ words against them: “Get thee behind me, Satan.” Then carry on in the best way forward in your “holiness of life, purity of manners, benignity and meekness of spirit.” Do anonymous acts of kindness, pray in private, love your enemies, forgive to be forgiven and be such a Christian you’ll never have to say you are one.

RCT and Memory Loss

05 Wednesday Mar 2025

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Alzheimer's, alzheimers-disease, Childhood Trauma, Dementia, Health, Memory Loss, Mental Health

-by Bill Watkins
Christian Scientist

***

Everyone’s pretty excited about “Alzheimer’s Disease,” something named in 1906 by its namesake doctor, but not mainstream until the 1980’s. Dr. Alois Alzheimer noticed irregularities in people’s brains, as neurologists continue to diagnose today, the National Institutes of Health estimating last year there were around seven million Americans over sixty-five plagued with its brand of dementia and memory loss.

Did you know that Repressed Childhood Trauma also causes memory loss? Google it. One might argue in order of events that Repressed Childhood Trauma, stemming from… the childhood… supersedes any diagnosis to the brain of a person in their advanced years. Could one say there is a more plausible root of memory loss in our childhoods (environment) than in some sort of God-given/birth given genetic curse?

Science is fallible, no matter what scientists (fallible human beings) say. The Covid disaster from certain perspectives was as much a disaster of Western medical reaction and inconsistency of offered remedy as it was a mighty tough virus. There is theoretical medicine and factual. There is the beautiful photograph my orthopedic surgeon gives me to point out my fracture (factual) next to his or her decision to operate as a “cure” (theoretical).

There is a gigantic element of salesmanship in Western medicine, as well, that cannot be overlooked when examining any scientific or “health” dilemma. A lot of money on the line! Staying with the orthopedics example: It’s a few hundred bucks in this country to diagnose a bone issue to a patient (factual), while surgery (theoretical) yields thousands from insurance companies and personal accounts of the uninsured.

“Health” is a word, in and of itself, that lacks official definition in government and legislating life. There is literally no working definition of the word in Government! Not in ours, at least… I’ve reached out to Nancy Pelosi’s office, one of Obama Care’s architects, asking what their definition of Health was. No response. Same with Bernie Sanders’ office, and same from the Democratic National Committee in Washington D.C. Nothing. I did a little Twitter survey of fifteen or so users, found that there were fifteen out of fifteen different definitions of health.

So this is a push back on Alzheimer’s. A push back on the “expertise” of Western doctors who stand to gain materially by big diagnoses and big payoffs. I am not saying there isn’t actual care for patients mixed into Western medicine, just pushing back. I hope in this also is a seed yielding the flower that is research yielding fact. Repressed Childhood Trauma causes memory loss. What is more reasonable, that we are born with genetic curses or that we are born equipped well to live through sickness and malady, and that environmental stuff happens in life to throw us off of a healthy trajectory?

What is more reasonable, that God or birth injected into us certain “bad” genes damning us to late life suffering, or… factors in childhood and life threw us into funks, in some cases so severely that we cut off those periods from our memory as too painful to revisit. To rethink or relive those moments was too difficult, so we obliterate them from our minds. It is such brains/minds, in my opinion, that Dr. Alzheimer, so many years ago, studied under a microscope to find had abnormalities in them.

Were those abnormalities from “bad” genes or bad living? Can childhood abandonment, rape, abuse, incest or being locked in a closet do enough damage to the brain when coupled with repression of memories to cause abnormalities that a doctor might deem “Alzheimer’s Disease” and gain a lucrative patient for a few years? I think it’s reasonable to think, yes. If so, let’s rethink our excitement for a trendy diagnosis that justifies putting parents away in homes, leaving them to drug treatments and nurses; leaving them to waste away instead of helping them suffer through their childhoods to find, then utter the truth of their pain.

Unlocking negative memories perhaps a key to restoring all of them. Sounds reasonable. Sounds more reasonable than “God cursed my parent with the Alzheimer’s gene. You know the one not mentioned in any spiritual book that’s more powerful than God?” Not reasonable to me. Not plausible, and from laziness and money to spend on professional instead of familial parent care. Let’s wake up to our trauma and break free! Let’s welcome the mental breakdowns sure to happen when we look back, putting the microscopes not on tissue as much as, “Break out the tissues, it’s time to cure our wounded emotions!”

Looking at any non-native family history, is it… unreasonable… to think that we immigrant descendants in this country, so far away from our original roots, might have a lot of trauma, sadness and homesickness to work out? There’s a choice, to me: work it out with drugs, doctors and nurses, or go back to God, even G.O.D. – Good Orderly Direction, as they speak of in Twelve Step rooms. Go back to the wilderness of our beginnings, be it in Scandinavia, Africa, Asia or Latvia, go back to what our folks did to us and theirs to theirs – find the real cure to our wandering minds and bodies.

Your “Depression” Could Be Alcoholism

05 Wednesday Mar 2025

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Depression, Health, Love, Mental Health, mental-illness

-by Bill Watkins
Formerly Suicidal
Los Angeles, CA

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I was in a freefall. The order of events seemed to be: I had a spiritual awakening at the Betty Ford Center in February of 1995, dropped everything to become a dedicated member of the Al-Anon 12-step program for about four years, then… the roof caved in. I felt like I had entered a Black Hole. Not depressed at first, but more like empty, unsure, and listless. My joie de vivre was suddenly tres blasé, the spirit from my awakening at zero… I just thought I was dying.

Of what, though? The rounds with doctors began… Psychiatrists, psychologists, a neurologist and a cat scan. I had Clinical Depression, that’s it! Manic Depression even a better one because I would swing up emotionally with creative projects, then dip down at other parts of my day. With that handy diagnosis, prescribed medication became readily available to me, and doctors began to prescribe various drugs to me.

Their doses didn’t create the desired effect, so I conveniently took over their management, got high on Lithium hours before that experiment sent me to the hospital. I had overdosed for the first time, but was it? When I blacked out on alcohol as a kid, that was an overdose wasn’t it? We didn’t call it that, but it might have been. For a few years I wasn’t ready to link alcohol use with my depressive state.

How depressed was I? Suicidal eventually. For days, weeks, months on end – unsure if I wanted to live through days, unsure if I even could live through them. Sometimes I still thought I was just dying, moreso after the overdose on lithium, which left me gravely injured physically. Of all things, that psychotropic natural salt on the element chart, used by some as an industrial cleaner and certain physicians as a way to calm the mind of suicidal patients – it tweaked my brain enough to tweak my diaphragm.

I remained suicidal and now physically injured from an overdose for a period, then overdosed again, mostly on another psychotropic they gave me called Celexa. It was during that hospital stay when I looked up at my very tall psychiatrist doctor and noted, “Dr. W, there is no Pill for Will!” A true statement that jarred me back to my twelve steps. I started to slowly piece together my alcohol and substance use as a child, relate it to my current depression.

I started drinking alcohol on Dad’s lap at five years of age, his last sip of bourbon and water. He didn’t want to give me that “adult drink,” but I kept asking for a sip, knowing it was that liquid standing in the way of our intimacy. When I took that sip, I crossed several thresholds that would come back to haunt me. I had jumped into the alcohol drinker’s club young, kept that secret from Mom, so had learned how to lie – which for the religiously inclined like myself let in an evil force I call the devil, you can call it what you want.

That evil led me to a career of underage drinking, reconnecting with the substance with friends at twelve, blacking out on it for the first time at thirteen. I was a little thirteen year old, by the way, not a burly young man… still a squeaky-voiced boy, chugging flammable, toxic liquid around my sport playing, thinking that was normal. I didn’t know how to tell the girl I loved that I loved her, but I could play sports and drink alcohol.

A sad past, leading to a sadness doctors called a clinical depression, green lighting drug intake without checking my alcohol and substance abuse history. I suspect this happens when the doctors in question are out of touch with their own alcoholism. Lee Harris, the social worker who led me to my spiritual awakening at the Betty Ford Center on February 7th, 1995: was in a position to truly help me, coming from relevant training and… I suspect life experience.

Lee created a safe room of strangers at the facility’s “Family Program,” inspired us to tell our truths out loud to the group. Hence the awakening, as it will always be true that the Truth sets us free. I dream that this humble piece stirs the truth in readers, perhaps one veering toward depression and a merry-go-round of “know-it-all” doctors who don’t know it all.

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